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Goodbye, and good riddanceSaying these things I know aren't true.  Saying you care again, just out of the blue.  All your actions set my soul on fire.  You said you loved me, you fucking Liar!  But I'm going to let you live your life,  All of your actions have a price,  Trying to  get me back into your web,  I think I'd really be better off dead.  Forcing your destructive thoughts into my mind.  Trying to destroy me, you're so unkind.  Leave me be, and go rot in Hell.  I've no reason to fear, now that I have Mel.  I won't separate my dream come true.  When I go to sleep at night, I don't think Goodbye, and good riddance
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FeelingHands around my throat.  Suffocating.  My life flashes before my eyes.  Meaningless.  Depression grips me.  I accept it.  Darkness becomes me.  Souless.  Blood drips from my wounds.  Warmth.  Memories cloud my mind.  I hate them.  I lay dying.  And no one cares. Feeling
by ~Killerkeller
All these things.What do you see in me?  I have nothing to offer.  I'd be the last person I'd spend time with.  I can hardly stand being myself.  I'm ugly,  I'm annoying,  I'm depressed,  I'm childish,  I'm mean,  I'm stupid,  I'm ignorant,  I'm a failure...  I'm a devil.  You're an Angel  You're brave,  You're kind,  You're loving,  You're fun,  You're happy,  You're beautiful.  You're everything that anyone could ever want.  You're much more then I deserve.  Yet you're here...  Seeing things that I have yet to see in me...  I love you. All these things.
by ~Killerkeller
In Heaven AgainI saw you standing there  You're beautiful  The lights dancing in your eyes.  Magical.  You asked me to dance.  I said no.  I was nervous.  Too scared.  You started to dance.  I wanted to be with you.  To be close to you.  To be in paradise once more.  I waited.  Bided my time.  Until I could build up the courage to go.  The time came when I had it.  You took me ou tof hte floor.  Crowds of people suffocated me.  Loud music, flashing lights.  But I danced with you.  
You laughed.  And I was in Heaven again. In Heaven Again
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One Month Old

Wed Oct 7, 2009, 3:33 PM
  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: The swing
  • Reading: No time to read, he's getting fussy.
  • Watching: NCIS and him in his swing
  • Playing: Mommy
  • Eating: Air
  • Drinking: Diet 7UP
So while I have a few minutes...

CJ is one month old, exactly, today.

At twelve fifty-five this afternoon my little angel baby turned one month old.

Hard to believe that he is a month old...

That I've spent one month waking up in the middle of the night, walking the floors with a crying child trying to figure out how to get him to calm down. Changing poopie diapers, making bottles, cleaning up spit-up, and giving baths. Getting peed on.

And all of it has been worth it.

He's my little angel baby.

It will always be worth it, no matter how tired I am, no matter how frustrated I get. He's my sweetie.

Right at the moment he's dozing in his swing. That's after an hour of crying non-stop no matter what my mom or I did. He's colic-y. And has pink eye. Normal in infants, and normal for babies of my family. Treatable, and will go away soon.

...He's starting to wake up...Sort of.

He's fighting sleeping, but somewhat losing. I look up and he's sleeping, I look up again and he's awake.

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  • Current Residence: Nowheresville, MI
  • Interests: Singing
  • Favourite movie: Take The Lead
  • Favourite band or musician: Nightwish/Within Temptation...More
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  • Favourite poet or writer: Edgar Allen Poe
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  • Favourite game: Soul Calibur III
  • Favourite gaming platform: PlayStation Two
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~Killerkeller Aug 30, 2009, 6:32:38 PM
So, you think you have me all figured out, do you? You think by threatening me with court, that I "can't" see my child that I'll automatically give in and apologize and be the useless peon that I was hey? Wrong there doll face. Trying to get full custody is the most selfish and inconsiderate thing you could possibly do. I flipped out because your mother passed a stupid rumor that I never said, as fact and YELLED at me for it. And as for the court thing, I'm just going to let you have your way, once again. I don't have the means to support him, not even for a partial custody. However, I am joining the Air Force, and I am going to see him while I'm on leave. I'm sacrificing 6+ years of my life to make sure that you, and your family can support Charles. You'll get to see him every damn day of your life. Me? A month out of the year. That's the sacrifice I'm making, and let me assure you, it wasn't an easy one. I'm not saying you aren't making any, you're carrying him. It would be idiot to assume otherwise. But don't ever think that my life is all fun and games, I spend 50+ hours a week working to make ends meet, I give you what I can, when I can. Most weeks I hardly have gas money to make it anywhere. You can think that I'm an overbearing fuckhead, I don't care. But I at least expect the kindness and reasonable argument, that I am trying. That I am 164 miles away from family, living on my own, making my own sacrifices, being along, for OUR son. I am not a bad person. I don't care that you don't believe that I've changed.
I really don't. The ONLY thing I expect from you, is to at least see my son from when he's born, until I leave for basic, and then when I'm home on leave. That's it. Just because you had a bad father doesn't mean I'm going to be. I'm not a bad person, and I'm not going to be a bad father, even though you obviously feel otherwise. I don't even expect a reply to this damn thing. Anyway, I've got to get some sleep for work tomorrow. I am sorry for what I said earlier, I did overreact and I shouldn't have said what I did. Sleep well Melissa.

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~Denise-Vasquez Aug 23, 2009, 9:36:14 PM
Thank you for helping me FINALLY get my avatar on here! I REALLY appreciate you taking the time to tell me how! YOU ROCK!

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PeAce LOvE aRt & sOuL
Denise Vasquez

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~NekoYashaYoukai Aug 24, 2009, 1:04:23 AM
You're very welcome. I'm glad I could be of some help.

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~Esora Aug 23, 2009, 3:23:09 PM
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Thank you much for the fave, Meri-saaaaaaaaan~~~

*uber glomp*

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~NekoYashaYoukai Aug 23, 2009, 7:21:07 PM
Thank you for the fave, too!

*Ish glomped.*

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~*~NekoYashaYoukai~*~

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~Esora Aug 25, 2009, 4:36:18 PM
Nuuuuuuuuuuuuu prollem!!!

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I approve of random messages. They make me giddy. As giddy as...something giddy. Send me one, I'll reply. :3

If you'd like me to bombard your gallery with my nit-picky, but encouraging critiques, then note me. :3 I'll get to it!! *big, shiny, grin* <3
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~Esora Aug 19, 2009, 2:32:42 PM
:hug::glomp::hug:

YOU'VE BEEN HUGGED!

Spread the devious love aroooouunnddd :3

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:heart: You should hug them in public! Paste it on their user page!

:heart: Random hugs are perfectly okay (and sweet)!

:heart: You should most definitely get started hugging right away!

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If you'd like me to bombard your gallery with my nit-picky, but encouraging critiques, then note me. :3 I'll get to it!! *big, shiny, grin* <3
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~Cyrilcynder Jul 30, 2009, 4:59:34 PM
thanx for the fav ^^

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~NekoYashaYoukai Jul 30, 2009, 6:46:08 PM
Not a problem, loved the picture.

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Turning over a new leaf, yeah...That's me.
~*~NekoYashaYoukai~*~

Big house, Big car, Compensating? ;)
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~Cyrilcynder Jul 30, 2009, 7:14:38 PM
lolz ^^

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